Who am I?

What is going on? Why me? What shall i do? Which group do i belong to? Perhaps i'm afraid. That i’m not what i wanted to be? What i truly want? What is my alternative? Where is that wisdom hiring? How much is that in Euros? Is it healthy?

What i’m asking when i inquire “who am i”? Which type of answer would please me? Should i need a chart of my geological or social relationships? Or list of my racial and biological qualities? Catalog of my psychological characteristics – the things i like and the one i don’t like, my desires and fears? All this things are shaping my identity. But, whose personality is that? Who is wearing that mask? In response to a knock at the door of my consciousness i ask “who is it?”

All of us, for sure, have this kind of questions. Whether we want to call it like that or not, this sort of inquiry is, classically speaking, spiritual quest. Our economical or social ambitions are one thing, but when we want “to be something” that is our spiritual ambition. It is not necessarily related with any religion, sub-cultural group or organization – that would be just one of the consequences of the quest.

In examination of who am i, i should go through all different aspects such as: what i’m seeking, what is my self-knowledge, what are my beliefs, how strong is my effort, what are my contradictions, what i am afraid of, what are my desires and self-deception, am i aware enough of all of this.

Suspicious mind would ask these questions: Should i bother myself with all of this? Should i do something more clever and efficient? Why i’m losing so much time and energy on something quite illusory?

Perhaps it is because i want my accomplishment to be toward self-realization. And this is only possible if i do deep and genuine quest of myself.

See you around.